Amanda Palmer

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Job Hunting

Well, Thanksgiving is over and I had a good time in Ruidoso, but now comes the time to find a new job or two depending on what kind of job I find.

Right now, I have a job at a call center that starts in a week. It will not be bad, but I am thinking I will probably need a second job if I end up working there.

My other options or possibilities right now are few. I received an email from a PR company in town that says they are willing to talk to me this week. That would be ideal, it is really what I want to do. I must have emailed every PR/Marketing/Advertising agency in Albuquerque and they were the only ones that responded with at least an offer to talk to me. But, until I actually have a job with them I still have to find ways to make money.

The other option is trying to get a job at the T-mobile call center here. The good thing about them is they start 3 dollars an hour more than the place I am supposed to start next week and they offer a ton of overtime. That way I could work overtime making more money than a second job.

Anyway I look at it, I need to start working now. I cannot afford not to be working, so the search for something will continue. I

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Well, Michael and I are headed off to Ruidoso today. I will be gone until Friday. Hope everyone has a wonderfull holiday.

When I get back I hope to post more informational stuff on this blog. Of course there will always be my opinions and thoughts as well.  I will also try and include some sort of entertainment… well, that entertainment might just be my opinion and thoughts.

So, have a great Thanksgiving!

New Job

It is Thanksgiving week. I plan on spending the time with my boyfriend. Then a week from today I start a new job. Nothing of pleasure, just a job to get by until I can get my career back on track.

What I would really like to do is open a PR/Marketing business. I know that will not be easy and will take some time. So as of now, outside of my current job, I am going to try and do some freelancing to make contacts. I will also continue to look for a full-time job in the field of PR/Marketing.

As many of you know I have an extensive background in TV news as a producer. Well this last week, without producing the 10pm news has made me realize a lot of things.

First, it made me realize I could not separate work from my life. It consumed me and stressed me out more than I thought. I feel so relaxed and focused right now. Not having to have the world on my back and making sure that I knew everything that was going on. It was a hobby and job for me. I would spend way more time at home looking up news than spending time with my boyfriend, friends and myself. That has changed and hopefully in my next job I will not do that.

Second, leaving KOAT has made me realize that the small stuff really does not matter. Life will throw lots of things at you, but you can chose what you worry about and have to deal with. Not everything has to be a big deal.

Bad Dream

So I went to sleep around 6 this morning. I was not in greatest mood. I think I was just tired because I was not mad at anyone, just one of those times that I didn’t want to talk or do anything. When my boyfriend got back into the room, I started cuddling with him and eventually fell asleep.

I’m not sure how long it was before the dream started. But it is only 7:36 right now and I just woke up crying. The dream itself lasted a week and It was one of the worst dreams I think I have ever had in my live.

It started a week before Thanksgiving with Michael and I at home in our bedroom just talking, something we normally do. Living on a house with 5 roommates, we spend a lot of time in our room. Anyways, we decided we were going to my parents house in Colorado instead of his parents house in Ruidoso(where we are actually going to be this Thanksgiving).

We went about our week. I am out of work right now, so I was spending a lot of time at home. Michael had school. Then came Wednesday before Thanksgiving. We boarded a plane and headed to Colorado.

Once there, we went to my parents house. It was weird, there was a lot of people there that I had no Idea  they were, but somehow I knew their name and they all seemed to know me really well(This is when I should have realized that it was a dream and not reality).

After I introduced the to Michael, we went and put our luggage in the room. I was very familiar with the house(in the dream only). I was showing Michael around and then we went for a walk. We talked about family, friends and our life in the future. All things I really enjoy.

When we arrived home everyone was asleep, so we went to the room. There was no internet in the house so having our laptops seemed useless. We talked a little more and then cuddled and eventually fell asleep.

In the morning the house was kind of like a scene out of “Christmas Vacation” except with just my family. My Aunts, uncles, Cousins and Immediate family were all there and everyone seemed to have something to complain about. Living with roommate that do the same thing sometimes, Michael and I decided to go downtown. Beside Walgreens and one restaurant, there was nothing else open. We decided that we would eat breakfast.

As we headed back to home we didn’t say much to each other. When we got to the hose we headed downstairs to where my family was to hang out with them. For some reason, I have no idea why, we ended up getting in an argument. Michael left upset and went to the bedroom. I decided not to follow him.

When I did go to the bedroom and try to work things out, Michael had his bagged packed and said that he was giving me 5 days to leave his life, then threw his ring at me. I tried talking to him but he would not say a word to me. He left the house with his bag.

I followed him, crying and trying to talk to him. he still would not say a word to me. Once we got about a block away, he got into a truck and just looked at me and said he had never been happy and then they drove off. I chased the truck for as long as I could and then fell to the ground.

At this point in the dream I woke up crying. I had to look around to make sure that it was actually a dreaming. Once I realized it was only a dream, I grabbed Michael and just hugged him for about 10 minutes. Which if you know him, you know that is not an easy task when he is sleeping. He would not wake up, grumbling things and telling me to stop and I just kept telling him how much I loved him.

Losing him scares me so much. I am pretty confident that it is not going to happen, I have never been happier, and he seem to be very happy as well. So I am not sure what the dream is trying to tell me, but one thing I know for sure, I am going to do my best to not let the small things bother me anymore. They are not worth getting upset about or fighting about. And the last thing I want to do is hurt Michael.

Oh yeah, for some reason we had the cat with us. I think that is because the last 2 weeks the cat has been very needy and never leaves me alone. He really had nothing to do with the dream, I just remember him being in the room and coming up and rubbing me like he normally does before we go to bed.

Well, it is Sunday morning now. I am going to drink some coffee and then wake Michael up so I can tell him how much I love him and how happy I am with him in my life and thank him for always being there for me and understanding me and having a way of always making me feel better and making the day a little brighter.